Thursday, October 6, 2011

Finding Joy and Peace

As Owen's 4 month birthday comes up next week, I can't help but to reflect on this past
year. It was this time last year that we had no idea whether or not we would ever become parents again. I had just had a procedure done to inspect my uterus and ovaries. We had had all the tests come back telling us I had MTHFR. And of course, we were still missing our baby boy. I remember at that time thinking, "where will we be in a year?" and I'm happy to say, I'm glad for where we are at.
It certainly was not an easy journey. In fact, it seems like nothing Dustin and I ever do is easy. But we made it. And I think that should offer hope to others. If you suffer from MTHFR, it is possible to have a healthy baby. I'm walking proof.
And now comes the inevitable question of whether or not we will go on to have more babies. The answer to that? I really don't know. I'm not exactly good at being pregnant and my poor body has been through an awful lot in just 14 short months. So for the time being, I think we are just going to enjoy Owen and continue to honor Jack as best as we can. I cannot say what the future holds for us. I find myself yet again wondering, where will we be in a year?


LauraJane said...

Your body has definitely been through a lot in the past couple of years. We are only 2 months into our "rainbow" pregnancy after our Jack died last January... My husband has already let it be known he would like for me to be pregnant again this time next year (about 6 months after our "rainbow" is born). I "get" it, but I also want my body to have some "recovery" time after all the hoops I've forced it through since we lost Jack, and even in that by the time this baby is born, I'll have been pregnant for 18 of the past 24 months... gah.

But you have time, and I think with time the right answer will come to you.

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